The last two weeks my emotions and frustration have taken on new heights. I have felt completely overwhelmed. I have broken down and cried often as I realized how much more i needed to do in one day, or for the week. If Dustin has to stay late at work or school, I have a complete meltdown. I have been angry at him and everyone about everything. I feel like the whole weight of responsibility for our family is on my shoulders. I don’t get any help around here from Dustin or the kids. I mean, it feels like I am pulling teeth to get any help.
Thursday was a major breaking point for me. I had asked Dustin to do some things on wednesday night, but he didn’t. I was exhausted because I didn’t have enough sleep the night before because Rebecca was up really late. Anyway…. I really lost it… I am embarrassed to admit that I was so angry at one point that I hit myself on the top of my head several times. I sound crazy… so I think it is time to call someone, before it gets any worse.
I hate depression. I hate how it affects me and everyone around me. I just want to cry and cry and cry right now.