People say God is their best friend. They talk to God, He talks to them, and they are soooooooo close and it’s all so wonderful.

It’s been YEARS since God was my best friend. Not because I don’t want Him to be but because I honestly don’t think about Him as much as I need to for Him to be my best friend. Do I pray? Yes, I do pray. Do I pray often? every day. For hours? No. Maybe for minutes here and there through out my day. They are not deep conversations. Occasionally I share my frustrations, or my thoughts, or I ask for help with something. Do I read the bible? Not often enough. I miss that part. I love the bible. Reading has never been a strong part of my life. I mean, I am not very fast at it, and I can read something and never remember a thing I read. So I take my time and read stuff over and over again so I remember it. And cause I do that, I don’t read very often. I try to read a couple pages of something every day though.

MY children and husband consume 95 percent of my day. This includes cleaning and cooking, etc. There is this 5 percent of my day that I spend either reading or watching tv. I love watching tv, it is the only thing I can do to completely veg out.

The last few days though I have been praying in the spirit when I take my shower. Usually if I do this, I have to force myself to do it. This has been just something I have the urge to do…. and I just can’t help doing it. I have to. Not sure what has changed, but I like it.